hello yes I am still alive
Chasing prestige, or status, is the most naturally human thing to do. It’s also what brings much of our suffering.
Thank you for sharing about your experiences handling the crevasse between our work place personas and our creative personas. I feel all this intensely. Like you, I also notice that people connected to my work life respond positively when I share about my creative projects. I do keep the two separate. I need something for me that I have total control over.
Incidentally, and this also resonated with me, I have also been laying low for a bit. Life outside this bubble demands so much energy and time, that I'm having to press pause on this (unpaid) part of my life. Today is the first day in close to two weeks that I've sat down to write.
You're not alone. We're not alone. Always enjoy reading your thoughts, and glad you're back! And - it's OK to be away. In fact, I think it's necessary.
I'm very glad to see you, via your words, again, Samantha. Trilety was not the only one who noted your absence, and it is so very good that she pinged you, that was wonderful. A knock on the door is followed by it's opening. It is good to read that you're living and feeling less partitioned, and more whole.
Sam, you're such an inspiration and I am so happy you're back writing and that you are also choosing to let your true self shine through in everything you do. Thank you for sharing even when times get tough, it helps more than you could know!
So honored. And what serendipity that your boss and I said similar things, and how cool that you were listening. . .I wonder all that I've missed by not listening. But the coolest part is that you are finding truth and comfort in revealing who you are in more aspects of your life!
It's great to see your posts land in my inbox again Samantha! I also struggle with headspace to write these things, even as much as I love doing it. Really excited to read even more of your dispatches. :-)
Woww, this resonated with me so much ♥️ I am considering going back to work after a year of sabbatical/unemployment, and I can relate to everything you mentioned in this post - I, too, have tended to wear an “executive mask” at work and wonder how/if I can keep nurturing my creative side. It’s so nice to know that I’m not alone, and I love the heartwarming friendship and sage advice from Trilety 💕
Glad to see your writing here again. You have been missed.
Great to see you back! Love your boss’ thoughts on whole self because it’s so so true.
I was so happy to see you back in my inbox this morning! I'm glad you received such a sage advise from both Trilety and your boss. Every other week of publishing sounds like a good plan. Thanks for sharing the cherry, colorful photo of the pencils!
There you are! So glad to see you back, Sam! Congratulations on the job and the decision to post twice a month. I’ve not been posting the last week of every month since the new year -- may have seen when I write ‘the next Friday edition will be on...’ at the end of some posts -- for right now, at least, I need a week to regroup, to not feel like I’m churning out stuff, I want what I offer to be good! (for readers and enjoyable for me!) Reassessing is a strong thing to do -- not a failure :)
Welcome back and congratulations on the new job! I work full time, too. It's not easy to write anything that makes the slightest sense when the tank is almost empty. Monthly and sometimes bimonthly works for me, take your time to test these new waters ❤️ Best of luck!!